While I've always been a nerd, my first love was running. I started running when I was 5 years old and have never stopped despite my knees best attempts to make me. While it may seem much of my youth saw me in front of a computer, in actuality you could typically find me outside. I had a basketball hoop in my driveway and my friends were always over and we were always playing. I loved climbing trees, hiking, going to the beach, or playing any sport with my friends.
If you've seen my Instagram you know I still run on my aptly named Sunday Runday. Sadly my knees aren't what they used to be, being plagued by constant tendinitis so running once or twice a week is about as much as I can maintain anymore. I learned throughout my 20s that my whole family has genetically bad joints. I have a bulging disc in my lower back, I've dislocated my shoulders a dozen times, my knees suck eggs, and I have chronic elbow problems. I destroyed both my wrists (RSI) when I was 28 and that is when I found yoga. While I was initially devastated because it kept me out of the gym, it turned out to be the biggest blessing of my life. Yoga has brought me so much joy and helped me to grow mentally, physically, and spiritually so much. It's given me the patience to meditate. It's brought quiet to my mind. It's given me so many tools that I apply to my day to day life. My entire life I've battled with mental health problems. Most rooted in my CPTSD which manifests itself with depression and social anxiety. Through yoga I found a meditation practice which has helped me sort through so many of my emotions. While externally I always appear calm, quiet, and shy, my mind is typically anything but. Through yoga and mediation, I've unlocked so many tools to deal with the chaos that is my brain. Through running, I learned that I've actually been meditating my whole life, I just didn't know it. The things you do and say while running are actually the crux of meditation. Positive self talk, visualization, steady breathing. Knowing that no matter what hardships befall me I can always return to my breath gives me so much peace of mind. And its something I hope I can teach so many others to be able to do.
I always joke I'm a boring person. I don't actually think so but I am hella sarcastic and have an affinity for self deprecating humor. I released myself from my ego long before I realized Buddha would have been proud of me for doing so lol. I love to drink tea, read, and write. I love playing piano, drawing, and creating in any way I can. I started my own Etsy shop where I make jewelry. I wire wrap crystals and make macrame plant hangers. I'm obsessed with crystals and tarot cards. I love pulling spreads for myself and then ignoring the advice because I'm perfect lol. I love astrology. I'm a Scorpio stellium at constant odds with my Pisces Mars. I love learning and acquiring knowledge. I overthink everything. Probably an anxiety thing, but also a curiosity thing. I'm fascinated by life and people, despite mostly wanting to be left alone.
If you want to learn more about me, just DM on Instagram! I always love talking about yoga!